The Beast Within

I become a wild animal
my mind races
like a frightened rabbit
my heart pumps
like a chasing fox
my eyes dart
like a cornered cat
my legs tremble
like a newborn colt
my arms shake
like a convulsing snake
my fingers clench
like a dog's jaws
my eyes turn red
like an angry mongoose
my breath hiccups
like a drowning mouse

The animal slowly fades
my breathing eventually clams
my eyes slowly turn white
my fingers unclench
my arms still
my legs stop trembling
my eyes focus
my heart beat decreases
my mind comes to a stop

I become a human
I look in the mirror and lower my head
the beast comes roaring out sometimes
I cant stop it
if I try it rips me to shreds
it happens more and more
each time it gets worse
I can only grapple with the beast
I cant control or direct it
I am abnormal, a freak
I am half beast, half human